Day 22 - This Love & Day 23 - Exposed

This Love

This love
Is new
But feels so familiar
It reminds me
Of the love
From my past
Bringing back
All the memories
The happiness, the joy,
The pain, the sadness,
The heartache, the struggle
The "I love you's"
And "I'm sorry's"
The arguments, the fights
The awkward silent moments
Left for the imagination
To fill in the words
And re-create the actions
I am reminded
Of the moments of intimacy
The love making
The way I felt
Looking into your eyes
But...its not
This love
Is new
With remnants of the past
Underneath
So strong
That I already feel like
I'm giving you
A second chance
And we've only
Just begun.
____________________
Exposed

You
Are so self-centered
Or you pretend to be
So much
That you don't even notice
The people you've stepped on
For your own personal gain
For your own selfish satisfaction
You complain about a love
That you want
But others aren't
Giving you
But don't know how to act
The moment you get it
I pity you
Because you restrict yourself
Behind your own rules
Regulations and boundaries
The moment
Someone steps
Outside that boundary
Either by something done
Or said
You quickly move on
To the next
With no explanation
Or hesitation
But what's even sadder
Is that the "next"
Has been there the whole time
Impatiently waiting
For the mess up
Behind the scenes
Only to gloat about the prize
Like love and feelings are a game
Maybe its a game to you
But to me, that's hardly the case
I'll only be your fool once
Because I know
That your narcissistic cycle
Will never end
Until you officially grow up
And realize what you're doing
Don't worry,
Your secret's safe with me.

Day 15 - Stalker and Day 16 - Wrong

Stalker

I changed my name
Changed my number
But I still
Can't seem
To get rid
Of you.
You tormented me
In a past life
And stalk me
In the present
I promise
You will be
Completely eradicated
In the future
Never to be spoken of
Again.
_____________________

Wrong

Pure
Unconditional
Forever enduring
The love that I have
For you
No restrictions
No restraints
No hesitation
No second thoughts
I love you
An understood feeling
Between us
That the rest of the world
Constantly throws shade at
They say I'm wrong
For loving you
The way I do
I guess I'll be wrong
For the rest
Of my life
Because loving you
From day one
Has always
Been right.

change...

Peace to all... I know I haven't blogged in a few weeks, but thing have been busy in my world... I'll try to do better...

Tonight/this morning's topic is change... A word that is frequently used, but like love, few people know the true meaning... Or it gets misconstrued along the way so that things people do is interpreted as change, when it really isn't...

To change can mean a total revamping of your life, or altering what you do already...change can be simple or complex... Something simple would be changing the time that you normally go home, or the route you take. Something complex would be...transitioning whether it be gender, a new job, a new location, et cetera.

Some people change for the good, and some for the bad, due to influence, peer pressure, opinions, or whatever... But I feel that true change begins with yourself...if you're not ready to take the steps to change, it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks or how they feel... The change is not genuine if its not going to be through and through... That's just like trying to motivate and help someone who doesn't feel it in their heart... Prepare to bang your head against that brick wall you've been talking to all along...

The point of this blog is to simply state...if you need a change, do it...what's the worst that can happen? You will discover that its not for you...and that's perfectly fine...you never know until you try. But don't base your changing on pleasing or appeasing others. True friends will always be there for you, even if it takes you a while to realize the need for change. Every man/woman must take his or her own journey through life and the changes that come with it... Just be there for your friends no matter what they're going through...no one deserves to experience this thing called life alone.

If your change has come...embrace the change, love the change, and live the change...if not, then it's coming...just be patient and be the best person you can be until you can bring the change to your current situation and circumstances...

Change is what the world is all about, just make sure you're changing for the good and doing positive things...

Peace.