Today is the conclusion of 30/30 - a poem a day challenge... I'll be honest, at first I thought I wouldn't be able to do it...there are some days were I doubled up, but that was more my fault than anything... At any rate, this experience opened my eyes to a side of myself and my writing that I've never seen... And I know that I am capable of writing a poem a day for a long time... This challenge has inspired me to continue this and develop it into another poetry book...so I will prob do this til the end of 2009 for the book... Hopefully I won't drive myself insane in the process...lmao...
I mentioned to "she that will remain nameless" that I did not want to turn out like the guy off of secret window who was talking to the man that really didn't exist... Yep, I see me, but crazier...ha... I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who stuck in there with me and read my work everyday... It made me realize that I have a lot of points to get across...lol
They say I have a gift... And I say... I guess I do... And I will always use my gift to inspire, motivate, entertain, relate, strengthen, empower, and inspire those around me... This is only the tip of the ice berg...
I know everybody's wondering about the novel... Please be a little more patient with me... It's going to be finished very soon... And its well worth the wait... I'm a perfectionist and I want my first novel to be perfect so all the next ones can be even better...
Again, thank you for supporting me and my writing... This was a very humbling experience... I'm glad I stood up to the challenge...
Peace,
-Sean
Monday, August 31, 2009
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Day 30 - Endlessly...
If every time
I think of you
I am filled
With pain
And a piece of me
Dies
What happens when
I think that
Last thought
And finally
Waste away
And I'm left
Wondering
Did you ever
Think about me
The way I thought
About you...
Endlessly.
______________________
30.5 Endlessly (2)
I can feel you...
When I close my eyes
Your presence
Is constant
Like the thoughts
That flow
Throughout my mind
About you
I feel you
Wondering who or what
Brings the smile
To my face everyday
Its the simplicity
In life
The unconditional love
And respect
That I have
For myself
That keeps me smiling
I hear your voice
A distant whisper
Of the past
Asking me...
Why I didn't smile for you
Like I do today
And my answer is simple...
My smile for you
Went away
When the reason why
I smiled
Became the reason why
I cried
And I finally started
To embrace the fact
That my life is
A story of a love untold
The love for self
Endlessly.
I think of you
I am filled
With pain
And a piece of me
Dies
What happens when
I think that
Last thought
And finally
Waste away
And I'm left
Wondering
Did you ever
Think about me
The way I thought
About you...
Endlessly.
______________________
30.5 Endlessly (2)
I can feel you...
When I close my eyes
Your presence
Is constant
Like the thoughts
That flow
Throughout my mind
About you
I feel you
Wondering who or what
Brings the smile
To my face everyday
Its the simplicity
In life
The unconditional love
And respect
That I have
For myself
That keeps me smiling
I hear your voice
A distant whisper
Of the past
Asking me...
Why I didn't smile for you
Like I do today
And my answer is simple...
My smile for you
Went away
When the reason why
I smiled
Became the reason why
I cried
And I finally started
To embrace the fact
That my life is
A story of a love untold
The love for self
Endlessly.
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Day 29 - Calculated Homicide...
Our life together
Has been planned
From day one
I took your personal goals
My personal goals
And our dreams
Of the future
Put them together
And plotted all the points
That would lead us
To forever
It seemed like
A perfect plan
Faultless
And without fail
There was only one problem
Halfway through the blueprint
I broke her heart
Like clockwork
It was a calculated homicide
Unintentionally, of course...
Has been planned
From day one
I took your personal goals
My personal goals
And our dreams
Of the future
Put them together
And plotted all the points
That would lead us
To forever
It seemed like
A perfect plan
Faultless
And without fail
There was only one problem
Halfway through the blueprint
I broke her heart
Like clockwork
It was a calculated homicide
Unintentionally, of course...
Friday, August 28, 2009
Day 27 - Apologize & Day 28 - I listen...
#27 - Apologize
I never saw life
Without you
Until it became
The harsh reality
That I have
To deal with
As each day passes
I took for granted
The person you were
In my life
Due to the circumstances
Of us
I didn't expect you
To always be there
I knew in my heart
You'd always be there
Because that's where
You've been
From the day
That life
Was breathed into
My lungs
And my journey
Was set
To the coordinates
Of your soul
The pain I feel
Is justified
Simply...
I brought it on myself
One of the downfalls
Of being human
We all make mistakes
And we all wish
To be forgiven
And though there are things
You will never forget
That I've done
Just know
That I love you
I've always loved you
And I'll keep loving you.
That...
I will never
Apologize for.
____________________
#28 - I listen...
I listen to the things
You tell me
Even when you're not speaking
The silent conversations
Are as important
As the ones
Spoken out loud
I pay attention
To the subtle cues
Like that look
In your eyes
When you just want
Comfort
And to be held
Or the extra umph
You put in your step today
Exuding your sex appeal
Like you want to go to work late
On purpose
What about that small sigh
You let out
That prompts me to ask,
"Baby, what's wrong?"
When, nothing's really wrong
You just like the satisfaction of knowing
You have all my attention
I listen...
To the way your body talks
In that language
When it feels good to you
So I give it to you
Until your mouth speaks
Those words
Of pleasure, ecstasy
And defeat...
"Baby, I'm about to..."
As those silent
Thoughts, sounds, and feelings
Spill into the room
Creating the perfect melody
Enticing my senses
See...
I listen.
I never saw life
Without you
Until it became
The harsh reality
That I have
To deal with
As each day passes
I took for granted
The person you were
In my life
Due to the circumstances
Of us
I didn't expect you
To always be there
I knew in my heart
You'd always be there
Because that's where
You've been
From the day
That life
Was breathed into
My lungs
And my journey
Was set
To the coordinates
Of your soul
The pain I feel
Is justified
Simply...
I brought it on myself
One of the downfalls
Of being human
We all make mistakes
And we all wish
To be forgiven
And though there are things
You will never forget
That I've done
Just know
That I love you
I've always loved you
And I'll keep loving you.
That...
I will never
Apologize for.
____________________
#28 - I listen...
I listen to the things
You tell me
Even when you're not speaking
The silent conversations
Are as important
As the ones
Spoken out loud
I pay attention
To the subtle cues
Like that look
In your eyes
When you just want
Comfort
And to be held
Or the extra umph
You put in your step today
Exuding your sex appeal
Like you want to go to work late
On purpose
What about that small sigh
You let out
That prompts me to ask,
"Baby, what's wrong?"
When, nothing's really wrong
You just like the satisfaction of knowing
You have all my attention
I listen...
To the way your body talks
In that language
When it feels good to you
So I give it to you
Until your mouth speaks
Those words
Of pleasure, ecstasy
And defeat...
"Baby, I'm about to..."
As those silent
Thoughts, sounds, and feelings
Spill into the room
Creating the perfect melody
Enticing my senses
See...
I listen.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Day 26 - Lost (2)
Traveling
In this world
Alone
I am lost
Without you.
My thoughts
Are scattered
And unfinished
My heart aches
From the void
In my soul
It is a feeling
Of emptiness
With no end
And I realize...
I am nothing
Without you.
fin.
In this world
Alone
I am lost
Without you.
My thoughts
Are scattered
And unfinished
My heart aches
From the void
In my soul
It is a feeling
Of emptiness
With no end
And I realize...
I am nothing
Without you.
fin.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Day 25 - Directions...
*this one is long, but my fav out of all the ones I've written this month...it was inspired by a meditaion I had on the way home today...*
I asked God
For directions
And he gave me
A compass and a book
And told me
That the compass
Will guide me through life
And to write in the book about my experiences
I asked,
How will I know when its time
To stop writing?
He told me...when the time came, I'd know
And to just do what I was told
And stop questioning everything
So much
To just live and be
And let life do the rest
So, with my compass
And book in hand
I did what I was told...
I chased the stars
I achieved my dreams
I weathered the storm
I cursed
I prayed
I was happy, sad...
And everything
But...
I overcame every obstacle put in my way
Because I was driven
By that compass
That was my guide
Through life
And the empty pages
Of my book
That had yet to be filled
Until that day...
I reached the end of the book
And the compass stopped.
I was frustrated, a little
Because I expected something
Spectacular to happen...
I stood there for a minute
Eyes closed, in deep thought...
When I opened my eyes
I looked down and saw a little soul
Standing in front of me
He looked just like me...
He strectches his arms out towards me
I didn't have anything to give him
All I had was a compass
That didn't work
And a book with no more clean pages
So...
I handed him the book
He smiled and said
Thank you Daddy
For giving me life...
In that moment, I realized
That throughout my life
I was writing the blueprint
For my seeds to follow...
So they wouldn't make the same mistakes
I made...
I asked God
For directions
And he gave me
A compass and a book
And told me
That the compass
Will guide me through life
And to write in the book about my experiences
I asked,
How will I know when its time
To stop writing?
He told me...when the time came, I'd know
And to just do what I was told
And stop questioning everything
So much
To just live and be
And let life do the rest
So, with my compass
And book in hand
I did what I was told...
I chased the stars
I achieved my dreams
I weathered the storm
I cursed
I prayed
I was happy, sad...
And everything
But...
I overcame every obstacle put in my way
Because I was driven
By that compass
That was my guide
Through life
And the empty pages
Of my book
That had yet to be filled
Until that day...
I reached the end of the book
And the compass stopped.
I was frustrated, a little
Because I expected something
Spectacular to happen...
I stood there for a minute
Eyes closed, in deep thought...
When I opened my eyes
I looked down and saw a little soul
Standing in front of me
He looked just like me...
He strectches his arms out towards me
I didn't have anything to give him
All I had was a compass
That didn't work
And a book with no more clean pages
So...
I handed him the book
He smiled and said
Thank you Daddy
For giving me life...
In that moment, I realized
That throughout my life
I was writing the blueprint
For my seeds to follow...
So they wouldn't make the same mistakes
I made...
Monday, August 24, 2009
Day 24 - Fakes...
There's nothing
Authentic
About you
The life you live
Is a life
You created
From TV, magazines
Fables passed down
And...
The internet
When you look
In the mirror
Do you even recognize
The eyes that are staring back
You made yourself
Based on what others think
And what they say
So what parts of you
Are real?
Your life
Is as fake
As that coach bag
On your shoulder.
to be continued...
Authentic
About you
The life you live
Is a life
You created
From TV, magazines
Fables passed down
And...
The internet
When you look
In the mirror
Do you even recognize
The eyes that are staring back
You made yourself
Based on what others think
And what they say
So what parts of you
Are real?
Your life
Is as fake
As that coach bag
On your shoulder.
to be continued...
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